[just nightmares. how xingchen wants to believe that. and what else could they be? of course xue yang is right, about all of it. everyone has their limits, maybe he's been pushing himself beyond his own. maybe he doesn't even know what his limits are. what do his good intention matter if he's worrying the one he loves the most in the process? because xue yang is worried, xingchen could tell by his kiss, not the usual playful licks and bites. he was gentle. it was like he thought xingchen might shatter in his arms if he kissed him any other way.
normally, xingchen might choose to talk to him, purge himself of these terrible images. if he put into words the hurt that he feels during these spells, he'd realize how crazy they really are. xue yang, for all his sharp edges, would never hurt him.
but he keeps thinking about that kiss, and even if he has been giving too much of himself lately, he can always spare a little more for xue yang.]
Mmm. [he looks into his eyes for a thoughtful moment before a slow smile spreads across his lips.] Distract me. [xingchen cocks his head at him.] Drive me crazy the way that only you can.
[xingchen laughs, and even dares to grab a handful of his boyfriend's ass right there on the street.]
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[just nightmares. how xingchen wants to believe that. and what else could they be? of course xue yang is right, about all of it. everyone has their limits, maybe he's been pushing himself beyond his own. maybe he doesn't even know what his limits are. what do his good intention matter if he's worrying the one he loves the most in the process? because xue yang is worried, xingchen could tell by his kiss, not the usual playful licks and bites. he was gentle. it was like he thought xingchen might shatter in his arms if he kissed him any other way.
normally, xingchen might choose to talk to him, purge himself of these terrible images. if he put into words the hurt that he feels during these spells, he'd realize how crazy they really are. xue yang, for all his sharp edges, would never hurt him.
but he keeps thinking about that kiss, and even if he has been giving too much of himself lately, he can always spare a little more for xue yang.]
Mmm. [he looks into his eyes for a thoughtful moment before a slow smile spreads across his lips.] Distract me. [xingchen cocks his head at him.] Drive me crazy the way that only you can.
[xingchen laughs, and even dares to grab a handful of his boyfriend's ass right there on the street.]